Ehehe, I'm totally happy we all are jumping on this with our music and this thread totally belongs to all of us!

I'm having the same affliction, Lemi, having been around computer music for 28 years, even making it that long already. I think, when I make pure synth music, there's passion in every aspect of it, a real joy in every sound, every track and every measure. Working with complex sample-based instruments always makes me feel a little...hmmm...like a vulture somehow, as if I''m taking advantage of others, playing with some sort of taxidermy creature. It's amazing, but I'm worried that I don't pay attention to their true nature enough, like I don't know the whole depth of what they offer.
I do like to be fully responsible for my music. So much so that I can't wait to write my own little DAW, hehe, but that'll be a long time until then.
My old Reason tracks (like flyby and synthilia) do still bring me joy, when ever I take the chance to listen to them, but then there's something about the sound of reason that just bothers me... it's just kind of coarse, the snyths, rigid and a little stale. It just lacks depth in both directions; warm and cold. It just hangs somewhere in the middle. Pity, because other than that I used to love it very much. Now it' has managed to become one of the most opportunistic platforms of them all, something I just can't really support. Another big pity.